Ignorance is bliss?

There are times when being oblivious is easier. Or at least it use to be-- or so are some children. They used to be. I used to be one, actually...

 But even if I want to sometimes be ignorant of the problems, it becomes even more difficult to ignore these things as you grow older. Plus, "becoming older" now makes you have reason on your side-- (or so we hope, yes?) -- yet that makes everything just a tad bit more complex and tedious. 

So if I want to ignore a problem, an issue, or a decision, I can't just leave it up to my parents anymore. My opinion has to make sense, I have to be aware of my surroundings and of the people around me-- because if I mess up-- it'll now be on my record of life, not my parents. 

Yes.... ignorance is bliss at times, but it continues to be ignorant. Knowing doesn't always help-- yet it is still knowledge. Let's face it. We'll never be satisfied.

Mopin' yo!

Sometimes you feel better after crying a bit. But there are times when I simply think it’s not worth crying, because I think I’ll only feel worse by letting myself cry. And yes, a lot of the times it really isn’t worth it. Why mope, right? But then there’s times where it’s almost inevitable.

I was reminded twice today that there is almost less than but a week left till I’m off to Salvador. It made me feel a bit down, to say the least.

But it only worsened when Paula had to go back home this evening, after having slept over for 2 nights. I wanted to cry, but I kept on thinking to myself --- it’s not worth it, afterall it won’t change anything.

Yet while I was saying good night to my dad, it just came trinkling down my face. What sucks about crying (aside from the plain act) though, is that the stupid sinus has to act up and make your nose all runny. It’s annoying, you know! Just when you get into the whole mood, you have to say – “Jeez, I gotta blow my nose, hold on a sec.”

Anyway—otherwise life is good. My dad’s a bit stressed from the move and from work, but it’s good. I’d like to spend more times with my friends, but I have to be considerate of my dad and help him.

I better stop here or else I’ll find myself mopey again!
See you...

Anxiously waiting...

I feel strangely anxious and excited, as I wait for Cristina's call. Plans changed and I'm going to see her today, not tomorrow. Paula won't be able to come for now, but hopefully next week. My dad's out to get a massage at the beach, and I'm waiting, anxiously. I guess I'm just really excited and for whatever silly reason, a tad nervous. Or maybe I'm just excited. Yeah, that's all!

I packed my things in a rush, so maybe that's why I'm a bit nervous, being worried I may have not brought enough or that I might have forgotten something on the way-- or that something may go wrong. I'm just nervous.

Darn it, why do I have to be so nervous?~ I'm such a worry-wort. (Is that even how you say it?)
Anyway, I guess I'm going to watch an Indian movie I saw available on YouTube that's with Sharukh Kahn (like almost any Indian movie, lol)-- that'll probably cheer me up!

Btw, I'll most likely be gone for a couple days or so. So if I haven't appeared much, you know why.

Merry late Christmas!

Yay for Christmas, right? I did something a little different this Christmas. I had christmas dinner with a friend of mine, Paula, with her family, and since they had this funky custom that they actually stay up till midnight on Christmas eve, and then they say Merry Christmas, I ended up sleeping over-- even though I hadn't brought a thing in preparation. Among dinner and a icky lookin' turkey/chicken thing on the table (I was afraid some of it was going to fall in my plate!), there was also Secret Santa.

 I gave Paula and her brother some gifts-- Paula got a cool picture frame, where you use the magnets to stick the picture on the frame, only the magnets are speech bubbles, and it comes with an erasable marker, so you can write stuff on it. Arthur got a pillow case, only a funny one-- where one side was white with an angel ring on it, and the other side was red with little white horns sticking out, lol. He laughed and liked it, thankfully. 

I only went to bed at 5 AM. Or so Paula claims.. Crazy, I know! But for some reason I can't help but feel more awake at someone else's home-- especially if I'm excited, I guess.

My dad sadly had to work this holiday. So he stayed home. I kind of felt bad, but my dad claims he likes to be alone sometimes anyway.

P.S. The trip to Salvador was a success, as far as our main focus was concerned. I got enrolled to the school that I wanted-- the only thing I that'll be really different is that I won't be going to school in the morning, but in the afternoon, since the morning hours were all taken already. I think it'll be interesting. What's ironic is that I'll be going to school in the afternoon just when Paula and my other friends change to the morning shift! 

I didn't get any presents... yet. Or whatever. And that's totally fine with me. I use to really make it seem important to me, to get a Christmas present, or rather, I really liked it a lot. Who doesn't, obviously. But now it's not that important that I get a presentnow. I already got so many things this year, so I don't necessarily need anything more at this very moment. Not that I don't stop wanting things, but I can wait.

What I actually consider my Christmas present to be is something I got before it. I got it at a bookstore in Salvador, at one of the malls. It's Jane Austen's Pride & Prejudice. I love it, although there are times where there's some witty argument that expands to 2 pages and I end up not understanding the point of the argument anymore. But that's only happened once so far. Despite that, I love it, and it makes me realize how the 1995 movie version of the story sticked so terribly much to the original. not recommend is the newest version of it, that features Keira Knightley. As much as I like her as an actress, I do not like this movie. The way the characters are put is too theatrical and awkward. So yeah-- you get what I mean.

Anyway, my plans for New Years, I think-- is to visit Cristina in Paracuru with Paula. My dad said okay, but I'm not sure about Paula's mom, especially if she founds out we most likely will be going with Cris & Co. by travel bus back to her place. I think it'll be fun, hoping it'll all work out. If it does-- the date planned is the 28th, or in other words this Friday. I must make a list on what I'm promising to bring so I don't forget!

Anyway, I'm going to ... catch up on my current manga, Hana Yori Dango! *manga addict*

'Been a while...

And I missed you. You know... I missed blogging with you, blog.

What's new, right? Well, I can say the following:

• I've been working on cielo-sereno.ORG! It's coming along, but I haven't finished it yet. Btw, take a look at the cute "coming soon" sign, hehe. ;p

• My addiction to reading manga has become stronger as I have no anime to watch anymore.

• I'm going to be flying on Thursday to Salvador to get myself enrolled into a school and stuff. Will be back home on Saturday night and online on Sunday.
• Here's a tiny peak at what'll be at the C-S.ORG.

Other than that, well, I can't say much has happened. But I have been busy helping my dad with planning the move... Ever since I started getting back to working on cielo-sereno.org, I can't seem to stop playing with Photoshop. It's so much fun, I have nearly forgotten! <3

Anyway, this post may have been hopeless in the end, but I just didn't want to leave it at the I'm the Doppler Effect,however funny it may seem for any new comer.

I'll try to talk about something more interesting and substancial next time. Now I have to go to bed.