test results

First comes first. So before I talk about anything else, I just want to post my test results because I never do bother, and hey—it may be interesting for someday out here on the web. Who knows.

By the way, before I do—I have to explain that the way they grade here in Brazil is very different to how they may grade something in say the U.S.. The way the grade things is sort of similar to the way they grade things in Europe, I guess.

Grades over here go from 0 to 10. Well, technically, 0 is non-existent, but even if you’re really screwed either way, they might just add say 0,7 – just to be accurate.

Anyway, the good grades start from the “average”, which in my school—it’s 7,0. So if you get at least 7,0 or higher on the majority or your grades, you’re good. Of course, something like 8,0; 8,5; 9,0; or what to speak of a good old 10 is even better.

Anything lower than 7,0 in my school is not very good. I consider a 6,0 to be borderline, since it’s almost 7,0. If you receive 5,0—they give you back your test either way. But if you receive a lower grade than that—like 4,0 or anything lower—your parents will have to come to the school and receive the test directly. If you get a lot these low considered grades—there’s a very big chance you may not pass on a subject. But that’s a different story all together.

So, now that I’ve explained that---and hopefully you understood it--here are my test results.

• Math: 7,5 – FINALLY.
• Physics: 8,1 -- a miracle!
• Portuguese: 7,2 -- but on the composition part, I got 6,4—so my average grade in a whole is 6,8
• History: 5,0 -- there wasn’t enough time to study!
• Philosophy: 7,0?
• English: 9,6 – can you believe I only didn’t get 10 because I forgot to add 2 times “d” in the word “use”?!
• Geography: 8,5 –what a relief.
• Biology: 6,3
• Chemistry: 6,2 – Even though normally get an 8,0 or 7,0…
• “ADEM”: Not sure yet.

"Idleness" is some's worst enemy.

Listening to: "Silver Lining" - Rilo Kiley

When I stated sadly to one of my friends on the phone the other day --
"I have no news-- that's the sad part about my life." -- my friend, specifically Cristina, laughed and said that she wanted such a life as mine. I guess I can understand that, since Cristina makes it a point to make her life out of the ordinary, sort of interesting (at least in comparison to mine). But she wants that, she strives for that, she's determined to do so.

OK, maybe I'm exaggerating, (btw, did I ever say I never know how to spell "exaggerating" correctly? I always have to spellcheck it.) since let's face reality (or my reality, I guess) as it is. Cristina's life is not THAT interesting-- she (and pretty much everybody else) just has more of a social life than I do, I suppose. Or makes a point to have one.

That's my problem, I guess. That must be the reason for my potential mopey state. Then again, if I'm posting here, I guess I already 'am moping. Lately my posts have become a result of simply a place to let my frustration out. I don't want my blog to be only of that. Besides, if this blog is partially about my life, then my oh my-- I'm not making much an effort to get rid of such frustration.

And all I seem to have are excuses. Like but this, and but that! As if that is going to make it any clearer-- what I have to do. What I have to do to make myself happier is almost as clear as day, it's simply me that does not want to admit it fully, to the point that I take action.

As I frown and type, let's take one big problem into consideration. I am lazy. A LAZY LITTLE 16 YEAR OLD TEENAGER. I need to throw out this terrible habit out of the window right now, or very very soon, or else I will never be happy! I won't be miserable, I'll just be a little happy. But I could be a lot happier than I am. All I have to do is get off my lazy little bum (not to mention to stop slouching) and dedicate myself to trying a little harder.

Not everything will come to you in your life. One of my stupid dilemma's is that I already have a lot of things in my life. Nice things that came to me, but by the hard work of my parents. But what I lack is things that most people already have-- which is a social life that is already quite developed. Me? I act like those kittens who are afraid to be pet by a stranger. I'm not kidding!

I've gotten better. I have been making a small effort to make more friends, but in the end, it continues to be small-- I could be trying a bit harder.

I'm not saying that I don't have any friends. But the small amount that I do also have their social life, and can't always give their attention to me. So... well-- I get lonely sometimes!

Another thing that has been bugging me a lot is that I don't dedicate myself to sharpening my skills, whatever they be. For example, I'd like to take some classes. Piano classes, or maybe even dance classes! I want to at least be able to maintain a website other than my disloyal example of a blog, express my creativity behind such things, therefore making me more confident in at least something. I want to be able to say "Yes, I've been doing such and such for so many years or months."

I think that if I did that, I'd be more happy about myself. And what do you see me doing? Mentally complaining, lazing about-- like any idiotic teenager (who btw has no hormones in function, haha) might do.

Let's face it! I'm LAZY as heck. If I wasn't lazy, I could easily be doing all these things, or at least half. I mean, sure-- everybody's lazy once in a while. It's human nature. But I am simply indulging too much in it. I'm 16 years old, right? I'll be 17 next year. I'm getting older. I'm not a kid anymore! The least I could do was be mature enough to be able to dedicate myself to something. Sure, I'm dedicating myself to school-- but anybody has to do that to pass. School is not my problem.

My problem is that I get lazy when I find myself in a situation that may ask a bit more effort of me than usual. The only reason I am doing well/somewhat decent in school is , well-- I refuse to fail and the pressure is thick enough to get me going. But anything else outside of that, if it's even a bit challenging, I simply opt to the easiest way out if I have one. And that's normally not doing it.

You see how idiotic I am?

Next time I post here-- I hope I can say I have made a change. And that I continue making a change. For once, I think I can "walk" out of here relieved at such a rant. Normally rants only make me more mopey and frustrated. But this time-- I've had a enough. I think I can finally get this out of my system and do something about it. Thank you, blog!

Test Week (1st bisemester of the 2nd semester)

These first 3 paragraphs were written on Tuesday, btw. I just don't feel like taking it out, lol.

I should be studying now, seeing that I have 3 tests tomorrow. I would be doing so, even heartfully, if it wasn't for the fact that I'm still tired and a cold is trying to get to me.

It's nothing serious yet. But I have to blow my nose now and then. And for whatever reason, I felt like I just came out of a marathon, once my dad picked me up from school and we ate at the mini-mall.

Normally I can eat the full plate of pasta from Spoleto easily, but I could barely eat half. My dad was okay with it, thankfully.

Monday were two tests just like today, only yesterday it was Portuguese (Grammer & Literature) and English (the language). I was fine that day, and the only thing I found myself stuck in was when the test in Portuguese asked us to write a composition, either of a instruncional manual, or an opinianated article about Global Warming. No ideas came to-- as far as a original product for the first option. Little did I know, it could have been unrealistic (I would have had a ton ideas if I had known that), so I chose the second option. Dragging through it, I was able to write something.

Tuesday was Math & Geography. I was pleasantly surprised at how many math questions I was able to answer. I guess studying from 4:30 PM till nearly 9 PM with my tutor payed off for something! What really bugged me afterwards is that I still managed to get a question wrong (I asked one of my classmates how hers came out, and more than 2 people got that answer) just because of a stupid - (minus) I forgot to add!! Then I would have gotten the rest of the answer right. I was annoyed then, but now I'm just dissapointed. Oh well. I just hope that for change, seeing that I did so many questions, except for 3 or 4 (they're 15 problems in total) I didn't know how to do or messed up most likely, instead of getting 5,0 or 5,5 as a grade, to at least get 6,0 or a 7,0, if anything higher.

In Geography, even though I made nearly 5 pages worth of notes, I still didn't do very well on the test. Not at all, actually. I only remembered vaguely of some things. I won't be surprised if my grade is low on it. But I'm not worried, since I can make up for it easily, I think.

On Wednesday, it was Physics, History, and Philosophy.
Physics was okay-- I think the test was pretty easy, basically because it wasn't my teacher who did it, but another Physics teacher. Although there were 2 or 3 questions I didn't understand. But seriously. My teacher's tests are a pain. He makes them unnecessarily complicated... History was a total bomb, which is unusual for me. Philosophy was pretty easy.

On Thursday: Biology and Chemistry. I studied Biology at the last minute (a.k.a, the day before the test) based on what our teacher wrote on the board. I was only able to study half of what we were told to study, but luckily what I studied is what mostly came up on the test --- which was the different systems; Cardiovascular, Digestive, and "breathing" (I can't remember its name in english, lol) -- so I did pretty well on Biology, I hope. Normally I just get by on the Biology tests. Chemistry was cool. It's strange, but I never have to study Chemistry for the tests. All I do is a quick look in my notebook. I admit, this one was a bit more complicated for me, but nonetheless I think I can get a decent grade on it.

Friday, which is today my friends, is a goofy test of 30 questions, with the optional a, b, c, d, e stuff-- only it has a theme, and it mixes all the subjects (as much as they can anyway). This semester's theme is the Pan-Americano 2007 games that happened in Rio de Janeiro. Kind of like the olympics. Anyway, so all you have to do is mark your choice, and fill the blocks that are either a, b, c, d, or e on this seperate sheet of paper they give you for each question, and then you leave with your test, only to find out the true answers the next week. It's an annoying, silly test, but if you get a good average/grade on it, that grade will repeat in all of your subjects, so if you're doing bad on some, it can help..

The goofy thing about today is that of all possibilities, the school managed to give us (students of my grade, that is) the wrong test, or rather, they gave us the test of last semester. So we had to wait for nearly an hour and a half for them to remake copies of the actual one, which was okay with me, but everybody was miffed, since we lost that hour and half that we could have been doing the test already. Since each day of test week, we have 4 hours to do whatever tests there may have for that day. I guess people were just eager to get out early.

SO! That's my week. Sort of. In a nutshell. I have wanted to make a post like this, about my tests, but never got up to it. Hope it was interestin'.

I can't think of a darn title.

Life is okay. Life is good. Student life is as normal as it gets.

But one thing I can say:
I passed in Physics!-- A.K.A I passed the test I had to take during vacation. I was more 80% sure that I did not pass the test, simply because I felt horrible when I did it. I won't say I got a very good grade on the test, but it was enough to pass the subject, so I am more than happy to report that.

On other news, next week is test week. I already started studying this week, or rather, I already started making notes. But really? I don't feel that I have been able to sit down to focus and truthfully study. So I will try and focus on that this weekend, for sure....

When I got home today, I did something different. I played Zelda: Twilight Princess. And I was actually able to get somewhere! I was stuck on a part where Link is in his wolf form, and I had to go around this village cloaked by twilight, searching for the "tears of light" which only can be found by chucking at the invisible bugs (which are not invisible anymore once you turn on your night vision, lol). It took me a while to realize the that to go into this one building to get the last couple 3, all I had to do was jump into the darn broken window. Sometimes I lack to notice the most simple clues. Now I want to play more and I really shouldn't... I should be doing math excercises or better yet-- chanting. Yet, you know how it goes.

Procrastination is one of your worst enemies.

Other than that... I'm sure I have others to speak of, but I just don't feel like talking about it. I need to choose to post here when I'm not sleepy. I get nowhere like this... I just get frustrated, that's all. Moody. Dunno why.

And I start rambling. With no point.

I'm stuck with the decision to either go to a friend's b-day party tomorrow, using up pretty much the whole day there, or staying home studying for my tests. I can't decide. Both are important to me... This is why I hate decisions! But then again, one way I could look at this is that my grades on the tests, once they are there-- no turning back. No worth moping. So maybe that means I should stay at home and study, just to make sure I get good grades. But then I'll be missing a friend's birthday party-- that's sad.

Oh well. I'll figure it out...

1890's smarts

Some things that happened today:
• I saw the most adorable siamese kitten today.
• I just watched a movie called "A Good Woman." Never did I think a group of old men talking amongst one another could be so terribly funny and so true.
• My headache is gone..!
• I didn't study the rest of Geography or Chemistry, like I wanted to. But for some reason I'm not worried about my mini-tests tomorrow. I feel okay about it.
• And my headache is gone. Isn't that just wonderful?
• It is wonderful.
• Now I shall go to sleep...
In hopes of dreaming about the 1890's.
And witty side comments.

Good Night

Michael B.

I still say Michael Bublé has one of the MOST sweetest jazzy voices ever. Someone commented on a song, saying that his voice is like "butter sizling on a frying pan". I totally agree, haha. <3

Go here to witness his gorgeous voice.

Study, doust tho?

Student life is sad. Not all the time. But there are no doubt times. Times where you have yet to study for the test week that's coming after the coming week-- if you catch my drift.

I haven't studied yet. Not properly, not what I would consider "studying" at least. And it's my fault in the end, I know! But... but it's too late to say "but". That's what's depressing. I'm just going to have to study a lot this coming week, and next, 'course. It's what always seems to happen when test week comes. I can't seem to organize my studies a week or two ahead. Some people can, but I can't. Not now, anyway.

Student life. Isn't it a beautiful thing? Three years from now, or later no doubt, I'll be looking back on this with a laugh and a "I want those days back." It's like that everytime. Once you don't have it-- you want it. And when you have-- you asked for too much, or want less, or none at all. Us peeps are stupid, if you ask me. So very undecisive to the point that it gets to you.