Who would think...

Listening to: "Pieces of Me" - Ashlee Simpson
Credits: credit for icon goes to Confidenter

I thought I'd be able to relax this weekend and next week, but at at the end of class, Assunção just dumps a whole new load of homework on my head. Sure, a couple drawings I can do, and by all means, I can copy a little text, but adding that plus a research about nutrition and reading "El Cid," which is full of complicated words --in portuguese-- that's just a bit much.

I know. Responsibility is responsibility. But sometimes it can get on your nerves. I'm just not completely use to having to think about so many things, to remember so many things, to organize my time between fun and work. It's just out of whack.

And it don't help that my dad told me we're gonna have to move a bit earlier than expected. And then there's mom coming back soon. I can't help but just feel a little apprehensive, you know?

But I'll deal with it. I can handle. Besides, it's Friday. Low and behold. =)

Just another excuse

Listening to: Two Hearts - Phil Collins

Lately I've been feeling frustrated and dissatisfied with myself. Or rather, today.

Sometimes I find myself thinking that I really just don't make an effort. An effort to simply feel better about myself. Be more confident and conquer challenges, take hold of my responsibilities-- instead of constantly complaining and whining, insisting that "I'll do it later."

But then when I really think about it, it's just another excuse. I think about it, contemplate that I'm annoyed with myself, and yet do nothing about it. All I do is think about it, and then think about it some more. I do nothing in reality. And even now, I'll admit, I don't really want to. I have an urge, but I'm too lazy to act.

So yeah, I'm basically repeating myself and whining without doing anything to change it. Realistically, I can only start doing something tomorrow. At least that's what I think... I know, it's just another excuse.

What do you suggest I do? Other than take action like I should?

*blinks*

Listening to: "Somebody Like You" - Keith Urban

This is one of the reasons why I don't like taking naps, because when I wake up, I feel all groggy. I just ate some ice cream to try and wake me up, but I'm still a little spacey.

Earlier this moring (when I was at school) I had already decided a topic to talk about, but then the feeling passed, and once I got home, the topic didn't seem to have much importance. So now I have nothing really to talk about.

I guess I could mention that I have to do a presentation on Monday with Ana Paula, Cristina, Lucas, and Samuel about drugs. (Wow, long sentence...) The thing is, is that Cristina is traveling for the weekend and she hasn't even finished her part of the job. And she was the leader of the group, too. So becuase of that, we can't meet up to finish together. Anyway, what worries me more is that I have to study the content of my subject (Moconha) and memorize it so I can talk about it on Monday. I just ain't looking foward to the weekend if all I'm gonna be doing is that. *sigh*

Have you ever heard of Keith Urban? He's a singer with a sweet country voice. I linked to his website on his name up there, so go check out some of his songs. Unless you don't like country, you don't hafta.

Bummer FF: AC is only coming out in English in November. Well, it's only a month away. But still, despite it all, it seems like 50% still gets to see the movie. Wish I knew Japanese...

That is all I can think of. *shrugs* Pretty boring, right?

Ramblings

You know how a lot kids want to be grown up, or adults, per say? Well, I'm just glad I'm not, because it's just plain scary what responsibilities adults have to deal with. I mean, that's a lot of pressure! You're probably thinking what's the big deal, right? Well, sometimes stuff makes you think and realize. That's what happened today. But moving on... It wasn't actually my plan to talk about this. Actually, I didn't have much a plan in the first place. Because, to be blunt, I'm kind of lonely.

Anyway, I just wanted to get that out of my system. I was kind of freaked out before...

So, what shall I talk about? It's 7 o'clock in the evening and I still have one little piece of homework to do. It's a drawing that supposed to be something about this poem our teacher made us copy today. But I have no idea what to draw,. It's annoying to say the least.

You know, it may be kind of a weird thing to say, but I'm kind of glad I get to go to school everyday. I know what you're thinking! You've got to be insane, right? But I'm serious! It's such a relief when I get there, becuase I can hang out with my friends and forget the complicated trivias of life! (Though I wouldn't mind not seeing Assunção there.) OK, maybe I'm sounding a bit too dramatic, but you kind of know what I mean, right? Right.

Tomorrow's the Physics test, and surprisingly enough I'm not worried about it. Weird, right? At least I can relax. Anyway, the teacher's cool and it's not complicated physics. It's just stuff about weight and gravity and force and that kind of stuff. Cool, right? Right...

I guess I'll go now. Gotta do the offering before it gets too late. I really don't want to go downstairs, though. Wish me luck!

Almost Friday...

Listening to: What She Likes - Evan & Jaron
Plug: Anime Visions (credit for avatar)

Hi, people. Sorry about the recent posts once again. Lack of interest in things to say. Remember vaguely about a "domain thingie"? Well, it's here, online, only I've finally decided to just make it a coming soon project. This doesn't mean I've given up. It just means I'm putting it on hold for a little while longer. I don't want to go on the with it if I don't really want to, otherwise it takes away the fun and it eventually feels like work. So yeah... that's that.

I called Sabrina today (my tutor) and she helped me with my exercises my math/physics teacher gave me (which he gave to everybody else, mind you.) Then she helped me organize a list of the different formulas I should try and memorize for the upcoming test, which for sure isn't tomorrow, thank god. I don't like physics. It's complicated and mathematics are in every corner. I don't like anything with math, period. Science is similar, only it's even more complicated. I guess. I just don't like either!

My dad got his car back yesterday, and I was able to stop at the magazine store today. I looked for edition 19 of X/1999 but they still had the 18th there! What's with that?! Maybe they only get new ones during the weekend. That didn't stop me from buying something, though. I found another series from CLAMP, called "Tokyo Babylon." I haven't heard much about it. I just grabbed it because it was from CLAMP, and the stuff from CLAMP is normally good.

I also bought vol. 2 of Neon Genesis Evangelion -- The Iron Maiden 2nd, which is a different version from the original Neon Genesis Evangelion, done by a different artist, and is total shojo material (romance-ish). Some of the characters change a bit as well. The biggest change would be Rei Ayanami. I definetely prefer the original, but since I have already boughten the 1st volume, I might as well continue it if I have the chance. Besides, it's cute.

Our music teacher at school gave us a new music to practice. Before we were practicing La Cucarracha but the new one's called "Tristesse". Maybe it's Italian? Dunno. Anyway, it says on the paper that it's written by Chopin, so that's cool. In comparison to La Cucarracha, this one's a much sadder melody. It's pretty too. I've only been able to get a hang of the beginning, though. It's a pain.

My mom arrived in Germany today. Or last night. Could be either one. I haven't been able to talk to her, though. That's a bummer.

Oh, I also stopped at the movie rental place, DistriVídeo, and asked them about Final Fantasy: Advent Children. They said that it'll be a while. Why did they put the movie on their site if it's gonna be a while!? No fair. I guess I'm gonna have to wait for the "official" version like everybody else afterall... There's always the pirated version on the net to look foward to, though!

Wow. I think this is one of my biggest entries in a while. Cool!