Something different

Currently Listening to:
"Live for today, we'll dream tomorrow
We've got big plans in sight
We'll take this city, and by nightfall
the bright lights are calling "
--> "Time & Confusion" - Anberlin

-- Some rock music is very infectious.

Well hello there. I've been wanting to write. I have the urge when I don't have the time, but when I think I do have the time, I find some other reason not to. I also want to post more often. Afterall, why have a blog if you're not faithful to its purpose?

School this week has been better. AHEM. I STILL haven't done my History homework. I think I'm going to have to get it done tomorrow afterall... But I did all the rest on Friday.


Last weekend I slept at Paula's place for a change. Like, the first time! Before that, I went to a birthday party with her-- a party of a friend of hers which I have only met a couple times, but he invited me anyway, so I couldn't say no-- I ended up buying a box of chocolates for him. You can't go wrong with those, right? The party started around 7 o'clock, and we stayed there till 11:30 or so.

I even saw one of my classmates, Jessica, there! She's the only girl who really seems into manga/anime, but she's so quiet and unperdictable that I find it more of a challenge to get to know her. I attempted to talk to her-- we actually managed to have a longer dialouge than usual. Her brother and sister were also there---she said her sister thought I was an emo girl~ It didn't bother me at the time, but for some reason now I can't get it out of my head. -__-


Despite the fact that I don't really feel comfortable at parties (even though this was a very small-scale party), I found this one fun. I felt a bit weird when I tried to dance at first, despite the fact there was nobody really in the room when we got there, but I just listened to the music and didn't try anything fancy. After an hour or two going back and fourth, in and out, the room seemed like a oven, once a good amount of people were in there-- there was only a fan in there to cool off. A small one. So I just stayed outside. I also found out that I'm not the only person who may go to a party and doesn't dance. Jéssica and her sister refused to go inside the dance room. "No way. I don't dance!" I, for a second, felt like laughing, since here I was seeing a mirror image of myself, trying to convince them to at least try. It was no use, though. I said "I don't know how to dance either, but hey-- I do something and improvise!" No change in answer, though.

After talking to Jessica, seeing her leave, I sat next to Arthur (paula's brother with the white cap) and Davi (grey shirt and curly hair) on a bench, since I didn't really feel like chasing after Paula while she was dancing away. Eventually, after maybe 20 minutes, Paula and the rest of the boys came to join in the conversation. At that point I just listened. And the only time someone actually did talk to me, aside from the people that I already knew, was when I wasn't even listeing properly. He had asked me a question about something he had said before that I didn't even hear right-- 'cause I was spacing out. I didn't know what to say, but luckily someone else butted in before I was forced to say "I don't know what you're talking about."

I am rambling and repeating myself...

When we got back to Paula's apartment, it was around 12 o'clock. I only went to bed around 3:30 AM, but somehow Paula managed to stay up till 5 AM?! She's crazy, I say.

The next day I woke up unluckilly early as usual, and just my luck-- that time in the month arrived... I came prepared, but still-- I was weak the whole day. So we asked Davi and his cousin to come over after originally they wanted us to go out to the mall... Other than playing the most pointless board-game ever, I watched Ouran episodes with Paula, witnessed and tasted Paula's terrible sense of spicing, and watched Arthur and Davi play something I haven't seen in years. Pokémon cards! XD They were bored, obviously.

All in all, it was fun. And now I'm ramble-ed out. Hope this was entertaining. ;/

Plans unaccomplished

Listening to: Here in Your Arms - Hellogoodbye

First, I had plans to do my History homework-- that didn't go anywhere. Sleepy as I was, I then was going to take a nap. But then my mom called-- we talked. And now I can't really sleep nor do I want to do homework right now but I want to finish as much I can today.... Life is just a never ending set of stairs. The steps constantly make you trip in some way.

Today, some goofball had the idiotic idea while most-likely bored in History class, to hand me an eraser, asking me to pass it to some person (which I didn't even hear the name of right) and actually one side of the eraser was full of white-out. I didn't notice it until I was about to hand it to the person across from me, which is when I saw the white side, and its remains on my hand. Some people have nothing better to do, I swear...

Hum... I had a point to this post. I was helping my dad on and off to move a desk to another room just a while ago, and now I don't remember what I was going to write.. So this shall be stated "RANDOM" from here.

NEWS! I have none.

This was the week full of small tests. Explanation: My school does a program that every other week there are two-question-tests of each subject. Today was a week of tests. Today's history test was a total bomb. I didn't study a thing, so I literally guessed, trying to remember something vague I had heard last week. I think it came out to be a lost cause, in the end. As I opened my history book, I concidentally came to the exact page I needed to get the answer right. Oh well.. History is otherwise easy-- they don't expect you to know any dates, just facts! I love that part. Sadly, right now we're seeing the part of history I've already heard of several times, like the Industrial Revolution in England. Soon it's going to be the 1st + 2nd WW. I start to get bored once History starts to get recent.

I wanted to post here a couple days earlier this week, but it was impossible! Because of tests, I had to always study something, besides keeping my homework up-to-date. It's sad.

What else? It's 5 o'clock (even though I started this post originally around 3 o'clock), and I still have homework to do. I normally try my best lately to have pretty much no homework except what was given today to do, but since Thursday, I have not been able to do it. So now I have exactly these subjects (as far as homework) according to my agenda:
• Grammer
• Philosphy Project (it has nothing to do with philosophy, btw)
• Physics
• Portuguese
• English
• Math
• History

Isn't that depressing!?

Anyway, I better get to it, or else it won't happen. So I'll just explain what this project is about... I guess. Basically my Philosophy teacher (speaking of teachers, I MUST make a post talking about each and one of my teachers, because each and everyone of them are so different and quirky.) asked us to do a group project about traffic acidents, how to avoid them, etc. I'm in charge of the panel/board/picture stuff in my group. I was planning to have done some research already yesterday, but as you can see, if I can't even blog, research is even harder! So I'm going to do that this weekend... He also asked us to make a written essay about it. It's due on the 4th of September, thankfully. Or else I'd be screwed.

So yeah-- not a very detailed explanation, but I kind of have to stop here. Seriously. I have to do homework! Or else I will seriously regret tomorrow. So off I go!

Stomach is h e a v y

The more you want the more you must do, and the more you strive the more your stomach starts to feel heavy after eating too fast just after having been running around the kitchen trying to make a quick lunch coming back from school. Or at least that's my case.

News, news-- yes? I'm really late on this stuff. I've gotten real' lazy about blogging. It's sad. Anyway, as fas as "new" goes, or better yet, a couple weeks ago "new", I've got the following:

• I now have bangs
• school is showing its cruel teeth again
• but I'm trying harder to fight like a good soldier
• I think I'm finally starting to make steps to making a friend in my class
• I've decided to participate in my school's dance festival (although its theme is lame)
• tests are already in 2 weeks and a half?!
• I'm desperately craving for new types music artists (ok, I won't go for anything)
• Biology is actually becoming interesting...?
• I changed the layout because I was stressed?
• my dreams lately are only getting weirder...

Anything else is normal, so to speak. My dad has been having a health up n' down kind of deal lately, where his alergies are stronger and his throat gets really sore at night, plus insonia... I'm just glad I don't have that problem yet. But I do hope he gets better soon or else he wants to go to a docter, which most good ones are really expensive!

What else? I need to get my glasses re-done. I can only see really sharp on the very end of my glasses, like I have to turn my neck sideways and glance foward, only then through my glasses I get a better picture. Looking normally through my glasses-- I just get a lame but not totally blurry image, as far as reading from a distant. That's not always fun when you some teacher in your class doesn't have the most readable writing...

At this point I'm rambling, so I think I'll stop. I want to make an effort to post more often now. So hopefully you'll see me here tomorrow or in the next day posting again.
;D

Some sweet words

My mommy's b-day is this Sunday. I've decided to get her a teddy bear, since my mom is mushy and silly like that. But it's not just any teddy bear. It's two teddy bears hugging eachother with a rose betwen their arms! How CUTE can it get?! She'll love it, I know it. Even if it'll be a bit late-- she'll love it. She's gotta!

Anyway, that's not my dilemna. My dilemna is that I wanted to write a poem in her b-day card. A very cute card, btw, it is. I've only managed to make one that isn't as cheesy as the others and doesn't sound like a love poem... as much.

The flower stirs uncertainly
As the sun
Makes its way
Into its heart.

But you seem
To blossom
more than the most --
Fresh and full of smiles
You make the sun shine a bit more,
Brighter.

And then I'd say something like Happy Birthday, mom-- I love you so much etc. Yet later today I thought maybe I'd just say:

I thought for a while of how
I could be poetic
and make a poem for you.

Yet I realized
After a while
That in the end
There are no words
That can tell you
How much I love you.

But maybe I'll just write that and then add the other "poem" as an additional. Any suggestions?