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"Fidelity" - Regina Spektor
I've been thinking. I've been wondering. Wondering and thinking.
How am I supposed to pretend that I'm surprised when my mom comes to visit me for my birthday in a couple days? It was supposed to be a surprise, but my dad thought it would be more fair if I was prepared before she was here. Since... well, it's my mom, 'haven't seen her in a while-- it's complicated, basically. Anyway...
I'm a terrible actress, even worser when I know I'd be playing a big fat lie. So how in the world am I going to do this? Besides. At first when I found out that mom would be coming to visit, at first I was excited (I found out yesterday lol), but now I'm starting to get kind of scared. I mean, nervous-- freaked out-- whatever.
Another question I've been asking myself is... If I should participate on YouTube. I visit the place a lot, mostly to watch anime or listen to music, but recently I came across some people's accounts who all they do is talk. They talk on videos. About themselves, their opinions, interests, life, whatever it may be. And they're not total idiots talking about total nonsense.
I know, it's kind of stupid! Afterall, isn't a blog the same thing? But for some reason, making videos sounds fun. I'm craving for new hobbies, something to get me pumped-- lately I've been lacking that. Then again, I'm afraid I won't have the guts to post any videos. At least not with my face on it (what to speak of talking), although in the end, you'll just be talking to yourself... Plus, I don't think my dad would be so keen on it.
But even so, the desire still lingers. Should I go for it, or shouldn't I? That is the question, lol.
If there isn't nobody that is SOMEBODY that can totally make me giddy, then it is Michael Bublé and his gorgeous voice. I just love them to pieces! Especially his new album: Call Me Irresponsible. Buy it now!
